3:00 AM, The Food Network, and Snow Plowing Issues

So I am not sure what this blog will do for me or for you who chooses to follow it.  I hope it will bring thoughtfulness, may be some enlightenment for your your own life journey, a good recipe here or there, some other good hints, may be some inspiration.....maybe just a smile and the ability to relate to some 40-something woman struggling to rebuild her life.

So....Yes.....it is now 3:05 am.  Snowing again in the North East.  Only 3 -6 inches this time.  This lovely snow falling peacefully over 2 feet of snow crusted over by rain.  Lovely.  Apparently, we are having snow plow drama on the street I live on. You see, my street is a private street so we have to contract to have is plowed.  And, being single and alone (no man power), I usually contract with the plow guys who do the street to do my rather long driveway.

Apparently, and I need to confirm with very cool neighbor and friend who knows everything (every neighborhood has that), one neighbor was upset because the plowers covered his lawn ornament lions.  No...I am not kidding.

During the email exchange, one neighbor confirmed that of course "rather endanger the entire street than cover our street's most cherished landmark for even one day."  He is referring to two recently painted yellow concrete lions.  Their house has been on the market for quite some time.  I wonder if the lions have anything to do with the fact they can't sell it!!  Good GRIEF!  Is is the only thing in life to worry about!  Problem is, I use the newly fired snow plow guys to do my driveway!!!  Life can be simple if you don't have concrete lion ornaments or is it more complicated than that?  Seriously, when they painted those lions yellow last summer I laughed and laughed. 

3:20 now....I am watching repeats of Iron Chef.  The big 'L' on the forehead is coming to mind for me right now. 

Read a cool quote today....

"Do you know why a Car's WINDSHIELD is so large
& The Rear view Mirror is so small?
Because our past not as important as our FUTURE.
Look Ahead and Move on."

All the things I thought I held dear are out of my life right now.  Well, not all, but most.   I am not being morose.  I am actually a really positive and upbeat person.  But I feel lost.  All the cliche's are true.  All the 'self help' reading is true.  But I am having a hard time embracing it right now.  The woman I thought I was is and the one who is growing inside and working to blossom....is it like grafting two rose bushes together?  or grafting to make a white pumpkin?  WHO needs a WHITE pumpkin!  lol....just lots of change to embrace.

My whole perspective of what I THOUGHT I had to be is gone.  But I don't yet know where the woman, who is in process of 'udating' herself will end up.